Dearest Jen, It has been two weeks since I left your lifeless body alone there at UCLA. You looked like you were sleeping but I knew you had left me. It was the worst pain I have ever felt. I know that wasn't you lying there but you were still warm and soft and knowing I would never feel that again was something I just couldn't accept. How did you like your celebration of life this past Monday? I am sure you were up there smiling as you always have done. Everyone here misses you so much. I saw your brother crying for you for the very first time. He loved you so much, Jen. Our hearts are empty, sweetie, the space only to be filled when we see you again in heaven. And we saw that lone, white dove you sent to us at your grave site. Thank you for that "sign" that you are flying with the angels! Sweet Jennifer, know that you were a joy to care for and were never a burden. My burden now is remaining here without you. I miss you so very, very much.